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Friday, November 25, 2011

Baby Joys

I love how you hold your hands out to me when you are tired, or hurt, and needing a quick kiss or hug from Mummy to make the world good again. I love how I ask for a kiss back, and you put your open mouth against my cheek and lick. I love how you rub your ears when you're sleepy. I love how you giggle when I start to let go of your hand, hoping you will take that first unassisted step; you don't. Instead you giggle and drop down to your knees to start crawling. I love how you love cheese and it disappears quick as I put bits of it into your tray. I love how you hold your hands up and push when I say time to put on mittens. I love how you snuggle right into me at naptime or bedtime, and reach out your hand to gently explore my face. I love how you would absentmindedly pat my cheeks as if you were putting me to sleep, instead of the other way around. I love how you run the flat of your palm against my lips over and over again, also during bedtime. I love how you laugh at most of Mummy's antics and silly faces. Your joyful laugh heals the stresses and rejuvenates the exhausted spirit. I love how, in a state of half-sleep and half-wakefulness at bedtime or in the morning, you would roll right on top of me and lay your head on my chest, as if listening to my heartbeat. I love snuggling up right next to you at night and smelling your soft, sweet baby breath. I love... I love... I love.... So many lovely things about you, and I live each day completely satisfied, filled, enriched, and blessed. I am forever thankful.

Monday, August 29, 2011

Facebook Friendships

The last time I checked I had 373 friends. Who knew the day would come when all it took was a log in to see how many friends you have. But this does not really equate with the number of people who will actually ask how my kids and my dog are, keep themselves posted on whether I have my driver's license yet, send their regards to my parents, chat with me online or on the phone, plaster my Facebook wall with sweet, silly messages, and comment on every status and photo I post. Some people I know have close to 1,000 friends! Does this make me a bit anti-social, or introverted perhaps, or not quite popular? And some people on my friends list I vaguely recognize from their profile photo! (As a rule, if I get a friend request from someone and we have at least 2 common friends, then I accept. Even if I don't recognize the name or the picture; hey, sometimes people's faces change a lot over time!) And I also do not send out friend requests to every single entity on the People You May Know list. Well, maybe I should, and maybe I will reach 400 friends.

What's with this number anyway? It has redefined friendship for me, so now friends include acquaintances, people I've met all of two times in my whole life, or who I've seen out and about in high school or university but never actually exchanged words with. And some friends who I actually value are either not online, much less on Facebook. I've even come to define myself as a person in terms of who are on my friends list, and how I fill this list. I'm scared to send friend requests because I think I would be affronted if they didn't accept within, say, a day. Someone unfriended me, and we both knew it was high time and a healthy move for both of us, but it still left me depressed for a couple of days. Don't get me wrong, I love Facebook because I've reconnected with old friends, and it has given me a clearer perspective of how different circles of friends have formed me as a person, and where each circle stands in my life now. The renewed friendships within my high school batch has allowed us to reach out and help each other.

I just wonder at how much the dynamics of Facebook friendships have affected the actual sociology of human relationships. How much will my real life relationships change based on actions on Facebook by my "friends"? This friend who unfriended me, how will I act towards her/him when we see each other again? How can a simple act of clicking the Like button change how I feel towards someone? Mind-boggling how our lives have gotten confined inside a computer screen (or a smartphone for that matter). As if our physical beings have suddenly turned into a hologram and got sucked into machines. Is this how the evolution of man is going to happen?

Friday, July 1, 2011

True Patriot Love

A sea of men and women and children of all ages decked out in red and white, with the mandatory silly hat, temporary tattoo, and little paper flags?

Concerts, cakes, fireworks, and for some, booze and boisterousness?

This is Canada Day and for, well, new Canadians like me and big J, we happily jump into the festivities, hoping to remember the warmth and pomp of Filipino fiestas. There's no lechon here, but burgers on the bbq are just as fine. The past couple of years we've had family over at our house for barbies, but this year, we chose to celebrate with the community, this being baby J's and my parents' first Canada Day. We skipped the big party downtown because we don't do well with huge crowds, and we have all the goods right here in our lovely Sidney by the Sea.

Thursday saw us drinking in the sights, sounds, and smells of the summer market. It's always a treat to stroll right down Beacon Ave. and browse through the booths. I love the handmade jewelries though I have yet to make a purchase; perhaps before the last market day in August I should reward myself with new earrings? Saltspring Cheese Co. makes an appearance this year, and I did polish off the last of that Tapenade and Anchovy Goat Cheese that we got when we were over at their beautiful island. And Ohh La La Cupcakes are truly oh-la-la! We picked up pulled pork sandwiches for dinner and watched Mufaro Marimba, and wait! There's no room for dessert! We've got to come back for mini-donuts, beaver and whale tails and Wanna Wafel.

Then we head down to Beacon Park for a night of jazz tunes delivered by Soul 62, the incredible band from Belmont Secondary. Some kids are dancing in front of the bandshell, some are playing tag, the adults are sipping coffees and hot chocolates and tapping their feet to the music. Haro Strait and the distant Mt Baker in the state of Washington provide a breathtaking backdrop to such a lovely evening. We're all waiting for sunset. Why? Fireworks, of course! As nighttime descends, the band wraps up their concert and we all cheer when the sky lights up in brilliant bursts of color and light. The bangs bounce against Sidney Pier Hotel and seem louder. I glance at baby J worriedly but the noise does not bother him; he is entranced with the display and his big, round eyes reflect the fiery showers. Big J is cuddled with her best friend on the ground underneath warm blankets; trust them to find each other in big crowds like these. As the last bang and pop echo through the night, I feel so blessed to live in this wonderful little town, and offer up a quick prayer of thanks.


Canada Day finds us at the parade. Funny how the highlight of the parade for me was when a bald eagle flew above us, chased by a flock of angry crows. The eagle dropped something on the ground as it tried to escape. It was a big piece of fish head, which apparently landed on a poor woman sitting in an outdoor cafe! I would have taken a picture of the fish but this gentleman rushed past me with a bag and scooped up the offending head.

In the afternoon, we head back to Beacon Park for the build-a-boat race, which we've heard lots of but never saw. Well, we will be back next year to watch it because it was lots of fun! Who knew you could make a seaworthy boat (for the 1 minute it took the winning team to finish the race) out of $100 worth of materials from the local lumber shop and good old hand tools. It was great cheering them on, especially the last team struggling to paddle back to shore in their garbage can-and-wood contraption, or the comical Rocktopus guys trying to swim while holding up their wooden 'submarine'. Definitely something that can be a tradition on Canada Day.

Now I say goodnight Canada, and happy 144th birthday! My family are all in bed, exhausted, sunburned, and filled with memories of today.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Healing

And now healing slowly begins. The decisions that I needed to make yesterday but were too painful, I can now look forward to making with a clear mind and easy heart, somewhere down the road. There will be consequences of my action but for now I am embracing the gentle relief of time passing and the healing it brings. The pain is dulling and the loss not so great anymore. I had forgotten how liberating the truth can be. 

Tomorrow will be a better day. 

Monday, June 27, 2011

Burning Bridges

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Sunday, June 19, 2011

No Sense

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Friday, April 1, 2011

Unlike

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